Disappoint Me

Disappoint Me

A Novel

About the Book

After a rough tumble and maybe-serious head injury, a disillusioned trans poet falls for a charming corporate lawyer in a love story that grapples with the explosive ghosts of relationships past, romantic and familial, from the Lambda Award-nominated author of Bellies, Nicola Dinan

“Fell down the stairs and woke up a trad wife.”
Max is thirty, a published poet and grossly overpaid legal counsel for a tech company. With a lifetime of dysphoria and fuccbois rattling around in her head, Max is plagued with a deep dissatisfaction during what should be the best years of her life. After taking a spill down the stairs at a New Year’s Eve party, she decides to make some changes. First things first: a stab at good old-fashioned heteronormativity.

Max thinks she’s found the answer in Vincent, a corporate lawyer and hobby baker, whose trad friendship group may as well speak a foreign language, and whose Chinese parents never pictured their son dating a trans woman. This uncharted territory may have rough terrain, but Vincent cares for Max in a way she’d long given up on as a foolish fantasy.

Yet Vincent is carrying his own baggage from his gap year in Thailand a decade prior: an explosive entanglement with a mysterious, gorgeous traveler. Voice-driven, warm, and poignant, Disappoint Me is an exploration of millennial angst, race, trans panic, and the allure of bourgeois domesticity that asks if we are defined by our worst mistakes.
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Praise for Disappoint Me

“Nicola Dinan writes like some kind of demigod. Her fictions make thinkable new realities for how we live and what we might expect from each other.”—Torrey Peters, author of Detransition Baby

“Brimming with razor-sharp wit and compassion, Disappoint Me is a charming, big-hearted love story unlike any I’ve read before. It’s an insightful and brilliant meditation on the existential anxiety of otherness, the intermingling of pride and shame, and forgiveness.”—Marisa Crane, author of A Sharp Endless Need

Disappoint Me is a study in human frailty that is riveting, funny and devastating. It explores heteronormativity, friendship and getting older but, most of all, it’s about confronting the disturbing fact that we cannot ever fully know the person we are sleeping next to.”—Shon Faye, author of The Transgender Issue

Disappoint Me is an absolute gift. Bursting with big questions about the politics of romance, family, and care, this novel navigates moral and emotional complexity with grace, nuance, and real storytelling nerve. Dinan is a savvy observer of contemporary culture; she writes with wisdom, style and brilliant comic instincts.”—Oisín McKenna, author of Evenings and Weekends

“Dinan has such a deep understanding of people and why they do what they do, how they arrive where they are, and she brings the world to us so completely—all the pain, love, joy, and mess—that I feel completely winded by the wholeness of it.”—Annie Lord, author of Notes on Heartbreak

Disappoint Me is a mature and assured novel. I admired Nicola Dinan’s work in elaborating the growing pains of a trans experience muddled by race, class, and changing public attitudes.”—Mendez, author of Rainbow Milk

Disappoint Me is a wonder of a novel, hilarious and heartrending in equal measure: one that marries the prickly, delicious pleasures of its keen observational comedy with the riskiest ventures into the unavoidable messiness of true human intimacy.”—Elaine Castillo, author of America is Not the Heart and How to Read Now

“Immersive, perceptive, and layered with nuanced truths about friendship, family, queerness, and real romantic partnership, Disappoint Me is a brilliant and funny love story—the kind that shows us who we are, who we’re scared we might be, and what it really takes to trust another person.”—Jules Ohman, author of Body Grammar

“Nicola Dinan knows how to write directly to the flaws we show when in love, with biting wit and laugh out loud humor. Disappoint Me is an addictive read, that I really did not want to end.”—Travis Alabanza, author of None of the Above

Disappoint Me is clear evidence of the skill and talent of a writer who does not know how to disappoint, whose prose is vivid, emotive, powerful and funny, and whose ability to make us feel only grows stronger with every story she tells.—Ore Agbaje-Williams, author of The Three of US

“A delicious story of change, and a beautiful meditation on human connection. Dinan is a stunning chef of words, and this is a book for greedy reader.”—Jodie Harsh
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About the Author

Nicola Dinan
Nicola Dinan grew up in Hong Kong and Kuala Lumpur and now lives in London. Bellies, her debut, won the Polari First Book Prize, was shortlisted for the Diverse Book Awards and Mo Siewcharran Prize, was a finalist for a Lambda Literary Award, and was longlisted for the Gordon Burn Prize and Brooklyn Public Library Book Prize. More by Nicola Dinan
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